Deep in thought

After about 2 months of exams (felt like 2 months anyway)... it has all finally stopped. Stopped. Hopefully all finished. 4th year here we come! Quite an exciting time + holidays for about 2.5 months + sleep in = YAY! A decent break finally... everyone was so burnt out that no one could actually study properly for the last few exams. The only worrying part of this.


The big plans:
1 Get my driver's license
2 Get a job and earn some money to fuel my thrifty spending
3 RELAX
4 Spend time with family and friends
5 SLEEP

6 Dance, dance, dance!

Ahhhh... the ability to just sit and think about what to think about. Such a strange feeling. It's like suffering from withdrawal symptoms... when we are not stressed flat out, it feels rather strange as we are all so used to being really busy and pressed for time. Now that we have all the time in the world... it becomes unproductive but thoroughly enjoyable *grins*, so I guess a balance has to be struck. I like being busy... but with regular breaks in between would be nice. Speaking of which, next year's mid semester break is 3 weeks! 3 whole weeks!!! So epic. So without uni to keep the busy half occupied... I have found other things to keep it going.

Shopping
Cleaning
Walking
Running
Reading

Hehe... not all productive, but most fairly good. Just actually having time to do what I want to do rather than just worrying about studying is fantastic. =)

Have been spending time with Mum, Dad... Bro next week when he flies back in from site. The house will be warm and noisy with the 4 of us living together again! Whoa... it has actually been a crazy year where many different people have lived in the house! It will be just our family again... the "norm". How strange... whoa...

Caught up with friends whom I don't usually see. That is a major plus plus plus. =)

OK... here comes the main part of the post actually. Why I'm deep in thought.

After catching up with some friends, my 'losing faith in people' comment was somewhat reinforced. Which is not a good sign. The lack of innocence, bad choices, immorality... the world is actually a very scary place. I'm glad that I found out about this facet of society/people and that I'm not involved with it, but am able to look at it from a 3rd person point of view and learn from it. I really wonder how the people involved feel. It is mainly the relationships and decisions made within the relationships that make them so freaking scary. Humans are very complicated. So complicated. It does my head in sometimes... why some people would think in that certain way and act it out... only to end up in a heap of mess... an obvious heap of mess that could have be easily avoided.

Maybe some just can't see the hole they are digging?
Maybe some have to learn by making the mistake?
There is always a positive side to things right?
I hope so.

Yes... that just got me thinking a whole lot... and my head is hurting now. Time to revert back to goal number 3 RELAX so I shall leave this post and ponder some more later when I feel like some intense soul searching/thinking. Teehee... I love it when I have time.

Hui Hui ^^b